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Success to me is…

El dictionario defines success as “the accomplishment of an aim or purpose”, “the attainment of popularity or profit”, and “a person or thing that achieves desired aims or attains prosperity”.

Okay, that seems fair. That’s what most would define success as. Depending on what my endeavor, success means different things. In terms of my new program, T.R.U. Awakening, success would be getting people out of their ordinary mode of life, and stepping towards their dreams. Just to get one person to commit to walking their true path would equal success.

Technically, I have already succeeded with Gratitude Rx. The goal was to spread gratitude. I’ve done that, and through the Daily Mantra series, It’s inspiring people to use these daily mantras in their life, and we are greatly supported on Instagram. So from here, Daily Mantra T-shirts, a book, and so much more. Check out Gratitude Rx on Instagram.

As a musician, poet, writer, etc. Success would be getting people to read my articles and listen to my music. I’ve succeeded there. My next goal is more music and writing, and exposure on a bigger scale (music labels, guest spots on blogs, etc.).

I never focus on money as success, because the money will come as I put my inspiration towards the goal, the Universe supports me in every endeavor.

What is success to you?

So I was in the shower this morning. My intention was to, you know… take a shower and get on with the day. That’s not what happened exactly. Right as I was about to get out, I stopped – tuning into the sound of the water – tuning into the elements is soothing for the spirit and brings about stillness. Take for example, what witches/Pagans call “scrying”. That is – peering into an element to “view” a certain intention or to gather information from spirit.

So I breathed in deeply and tuned into the water. I started speaking aloud. No thinking involved… I just allowed the words to flow.


I had the intention to write this blog post earlier while what I spoke was still fresh. Now is as good a time as ever. What I do remember though, was speaking about prosperity and dreams.


The next thought I had was for my new Facebook group, T. R. U. Awakening – Living Your Dreams. Of course to be TRU is to be TRUE to yourself. T.R.U. stands for Truth, Realize, Unite. Once you come into knowing of your truth, realization shows you the steps needed to be taken to bring forth your truth. Then your truth, thoughts, and steps forward can unite into the physical manifestation on this planet.


When you speak your words, the resonance is able to be carried out into the world, and you can act in hearing. Of course you’ve got to be careful of what you emit. Negative begets negative. So if you’re speaking of things you dislike or are going “wrong”, you will receive more of that.


In addition to speaking your words, writing them down is also a great method to manifest and bring forth what is within you. Some say that when you write something down, it is even more resonant than speaking. When you speak, the sound resonates and could taper off… Sometimes the words even completely disappear – like when you’re at the end of a dream, and you say to yourself, “I’ll remember this dream when I awaken.” Then you awaken and you can’t remember even the slightest detail.


By writing your words down, you can go back and look at them at any time. You can change them. In addition, I find that when I write, I tend to remember what I wrote. It’s like when you were in school taking tons of notes during class and study. You wrote things down so that you would be able to remember easier, right? (write?)


On the flip side, there are those thoughts that never make it out. They get held in for an entire lifetime. By not recording the thoughts of inspiration at all, they remain compressed and could even be forgotten. How many great ideas disappear this way? It’s like when I’m out somewhere and I have a great idea for a music track. There’s no way to record it. So it might get lost in the cosmos.


By the way, here’s the link to the Facebook group –

So the Oakland Fire… Such a sad story… So many affected. I write this article with the intent to only offer a spiritual/philosophical point-of-view on the situation and the ones that lost their lives. I do not want to offend or hurt anyone, and if my message crosses you, I’m sorry.

We were brought into this world with love in our hearts, and as we got older, we gained different perspectives on things, we have become conditioned to specific experiences and instructions from others – “this is the road map to life”. So we walk on, and some of us have it “easy”. Some of us have support to go for our dreams. Some of us have to go through hard times to get to where we want to be. And some of us, tragically, never get to our dream.
Some of us work a job that we can’t stand because that’s what we learned in Piscean algorithms (our parents were brought up this way for the most part). Or we go to school for something that we’re not passionate about (i.e. carrying on “the family tradition” or “you need to make a lot of money. Be an engineer, software programmer, doctor, etc.”). Another dilemma in the current society is, suppose you don’t have a degree or a job in your professional field, OR your chosen field pays very little, leaving you to struggle, work two jobs, etc.
So with all of this said… the subject is Quality of Life. The focus of life isn’t really how much money you have, or what you’ve accomplished. The real deal is HOW HAPPY ARE YOU? How much enjoyment do you have? When you’re “broke” (or think you are, even though you’re really not – or… don’t trust the Universe enough to support you by not spending money on something that you will enjoy, but deplete your bank account), and struggling to find that job, or diving into homework so hard just to get that career…
You never know when your time is going to be up. Like those in Oakland, no one expected the tragedy that happened. Dimebag Darrell’s death anniversary was yesterday. But… there is a positive in this – both of these scenarios have something in common – all of those people who passed from this world were doing what they loved.
This video from Prince EA shows exactly what I’m talking about. At the time of death, many are regretful of what they did or didn’t do to maintain a happy, fun, high vibrational life – but there’s no going back once you are about to cross over.
So this is a call to action – Do what makes you happy, regardless of circumstance. Be with those you care about. Do those things you love to do. Laugh. Dance. Play. Travel. Create. Be your TRUE vision. This life is yours, and one day we will all disappear just like those before us. We live like we’re immortal. And people will be sad that we’re gone. And then those people will disappear. And on. And on. And on….
 Start BEING your life now.
Stuck? Part of my work is going back through a timeline to see where the good stuff in your life is. Then I take those vibrations of fun, playfulness, joy, and unlimited potential into the current day to allow you to tap into the life and dreams that you really desire.

Aloha, friends! So here we go again. Another NEW MOON. New Moon in Sagittarius – I wrote everything that I didn’t want to make part of my experience anymore on a sheet of paper last night and burned it to ashes.

Scorpio was a bender for a lot of us. I don’t know about you, but a lot of the last moon cycle felt like ethereal CHAOS. Just a few days ago, I felt my solar plexus open up. I said aloud – you know what?! Fuck this shit. I’m not playing small anymore. I’m done with this – people, things, situations… Fuck it. And if my cursing offends you, I’m not sorry.

When our truth is compromised and suppressed, especially now, the chances of getting restless, anxious, and angry will result in revolt and further expansion.

Time to awaken. Time to feel alive. Time to break the chains. Time to fire the arrow. Time to rise like the Phoenix. What do you REALLY want? No time to play small anymore. We are giants here. Think about it – here we are, a massive floating rock in the inner circle of planets, somehow continuously thriving (despite all of the people doing demonic things to our water, air, soil, food, planet) while other planets are being ripped apart by asteroids, storms, jet streams, black holes, other stars, etc.  And still, here we are.

I have been meditating on the idea of a snake’s molting transformation. The snake (this also applies to lobsters, spiders, butterflies, etc.) is anything but pleasant. The snake will go into a period of shedding its skin, which also causes the snake to lose its sight. The snake will lash out and everything – and after some time, the snake develops a shiny new skin and slithers on. When we transform, it’s not always going to be this “love and light” people talk about as we “consciously evolve”.  We must flow with these changes. And through these changes, we are reborn.

It is critical in this time to GO FOR IT – entrepreneurial business, talents, passions, etc. Don’t give in to the pressures of Piscean paradigms. The time is NOW. Truth will prevail. Sagittarius is the Archer. The Truthseeker, and with all going on in Standing Rock, we must raise the energy to help our brothers and sisters fighting the good fight.

This is the time for us to bond together in collaboration. We are not meant to be in solitude from one another. The perfect time for communication, artistic projects, etc.

I am going on a cleanse – let’s call this… a mindset cleanse.

While Law of Attraction-based learning, motivational/inspirational speakers, listening to others talk about their journey, etc. are all great things, I’ve realized that even in all of this good, there is such thing as “overkill”. It’s sorta like being highly empathic and walking into a room of 100,000 people. Even if the vibes are high and inspirational, the empath will “freak out”.
I’ve realized that this is where I am at. I’ve listened over and over about mindset training, and let’s get real – every speaker pretty much says the same thing in different ways. It’s an easily understood thing. The thing that hindered me though – it’s not the fact that I couldn’t think these things or trust in these things – it’s almost like an addiction. The alcoholic can’t put down the drink. The cigarette smoker needs to smoke when the craving comes. For the inspirational ones, OH! I SHOULD LISTEN TO ABRAHAM HICKS! ________ HAS A NEW VIDEO/PODCAST UP! … Addiction.
The tools are there. I have all of the tools – including the greatest one of all – my intuition. When something doesn’t feel good, it’s because I’m not supposed to dive in there. When I ask for clarity, it’s because I am not sure of myself, when I have every right to be (successful, divinely guided, clearly pointed).
All pieces are part of the journey. Even if I am doing say… Shivaya Healing Arts one day, Gratitude Rx another day, something else the next day, NOTHING the day after that (space (to manifestation)). And everything I have learned along the way loops around to inspire the other pieces.
Have you ever heard the phrase “too much of a good thing”? Suppose… you knew nothing about the Law of Attraction. Then you started to dive in. You got hooked. Now all of the sudden, everything is energy. Before you started learning about this stuff, everything just “was”. You just did your thing. If something didn’t feel good, and you REALLY had no desire for it, you simply didn’t do it. Now there are all of these “rules” attached.
If there’s one thing I’ve learned as a spiritual being, rules go out the window, yet here we are, following RULES once again. Rules. Laws. Whatever. Too much thought. There was no thought before you knew of these manifesting “practices”.
This leads me to believe that we learn all of this “stuff”, but how often do we just let it INTEGRATE without thinking about it. “Oh I’m not feeling in a good place. QUICK. MUST CHANGE VIBRATION TO MANIFEST _______”. That right there is resistance. Whatever happened to just letting feelings play out? Everything has a dissipation point, right? When you get mad, eventually the anger burns away, and you can climb your way up to happy, right? What about those times where we would be talking to our friends like “Oh man… I can’t wait until I get that ______. It’s going to be sooo cool!” You can do as Wayne Dyer says, speaking from the end as if you already have it… but sometimes speaking about something you don’t have gets weird. So maybe don’t speak of it at all and just be happy in the thought of it.
You see? Everything in this post is a learned thing. There’s no need to over-listen. You already know this stuff. Just be it – and be grateful.
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Santa Barbara has been a constant string of sync moments from the second I left LA. To think that Divine Guidance put me here led to the realization ‘What else will come if I just let go?’ I came here with the intention of spiritual solidarity and an environment that supports my deepest desires – spirituality, nature, healing, yoga, great friends, and a ‘rebirth.’

I find it rather a-musing that I have been trying to write this blog now for well over 11 days and am just NOW putting myself into the flow to finish it. Could it be all of these synchronous events unfolding one-by-one? It’s rather insane, if you ask me. Insane in a good way – something I’m not entirely used to.

The original intent of this blog was to write about the Wise Owl Healing Fair, but so much more has happened since then. It almost seems like two weeks feels more like two months. But things are amazing and they are building beyond what I have ever known.

The fair was the fiery genesis what has now become a furious passion. As thirty something people locked hands to illuminate the start of the Wise Owl, It was not soon after that I met my spirit brother that I had longed to see for so long, Mahadeva Vodopija. The essence of his presence is so potent; I can clearly see why he and Anya Lei fit together like pieces of a puzzle.

I learned so much about myself that day. I felt as if I was shedding skin. Becoming anew. But then again, I was. Swept away by the sound healing of Luna Love and David Jesse Kennet, juxtaposed into Shakti bliss by the angelic voice of Anya Zama Deva, grounded with life force energy via Matthew Jones, whisked into the dance by Nicky LeFleur, Lisa Beck and the Djun Djun Mamas, and lastly, blessed with an angelic ‘galactivation’ with Dr. Dream.

I walked away with my spirit rising higher than ever. New friends. New ventures. And a dream that isn’t a dream any longer, but rather, reality while awake – LUCIDITY FESTIVAL. Armed with a tuning fork set to the cosmic musical scale, prepare to be awakened and reinforced with life energy as the steady tone integrates into your being.

Which made me think… What is my path now? The answer has come. Since the Wise Owl, Consciousness Camp 1 brought a new opportunity to me last weekend – my Reiki I attunement, set to happen this Saturday at Equinox.

I find it so very interesting that, with the breath of spring, feminine energies jump up like the flame on a candlewick. But the synchronicities don’t end here. Following my attunement to Reiki, next I will be attuned by the energies of nature, thanks to my wonderful friend, Erin Mackley. I feel so blessed to have all of these moments falling into line – from my healing practices taking off, to solidifying a blissful life in surroundings I love, to my plans for the future.

The number 5 has something to do with it. You know those little spiritual things called ‘angel numbers?’ No? Check here –

‘5’ has been following me since the day I got here. And what does 5 mean exactly?

— Buckle your seatbelts. A major life change is upon you. This change should not be viewed as being “positive” or “negative” since all change is but a natural part of life’s flow. Perhaps this change is an answer to your prayers, so continuing seeing and feeling yourself to be at peace.

Even today, the number appeared endlessly, as if on a cosmic acid trip with Sesame Street playing as the backdrop.

Another very interesting synchronicity is in that Adrienne, the owner of Power of Your OM ( Yoga is from the same suburb of Chicago as I, as well as having graduated high school the same year at a rival school. Trip out, right? Synchronicity? I think so.

With all of this happening so fast, I realize what my truth is, and I have set my plan to put life into motion. $45 for unlimited yoga will intensify my practice. Follow this up with 200 and 500 hour teacher trainings. From here, I will go back to Santa Monica to complete yoga teacher training at Bhakti Yoga Shala, as well as Govindas’ Kirtan Intensive. That is, of course, in addition to achieving Reiki II and Reiki Master levels… And the same for Karuna Reiki. Add to that, my octagonal dream healing center/studio and a voyage to India to learn with the revered masters. You now have a view into my present and future.


~ Bhagavate Om

I haven’t written in some time, so I thought I’d put this up before heading to my world of dreamy bliss! I must say, what a DAY! What a week, actually. Well… Almost. Since being here in Santa Barbara, I have seen larger-than-life transformations for myself.

It took a few days for reality to set in, but now that I am at my clearest mind state, I can write uninterrupted with full clarity of my thoughts. I left Los Angeles upon the notion that things just weren’t working out. Jobs weren’t hiring me. Living situation had rolled downhill… I had a choice – try to survive or start something new.

So I decided to leave this ‘life’ behind and find a ride to Santa Barbara, where spirit sister, Aurora Wesman was waiting for me. The ride out with Danielle Netko was a great one! Flowing conversation the whole way. Very inspiring too, may I add. Listening to someone talk about the adventures of her life was so inspiring to me. It was here that I said to myself, “What have I been doing for the last ten years? Just trying to make it out alive?” Just like the Alpha 2 track, ‘Let it Go,’ “Do you ever wonder what it means to be alive? Or have you been too busy just trying to survive? This is your life. Don’t let it pass you by. Enjoy each moment before you die!”

To finally let go and just let the universe flow has been a great experience in itself. I asked the universe for a few things when my time expired in LA – nature, water, organic food stores, a place where few knew my name… All of these things would help me purify my spirit and start with a  “clean slate.” Upon arriving, I found that the universe had heard my beckon and responded.

The first few days weren’t easy, however. It seemed as if I was going through some sort of Los Angeles withdrawl. Usually come nighttime, I felt extremely drained and tired. Others have reported the same when transporting from SB to LA. I’m mostly through it now. I’ve also realized that many non-organic foods now make me sick. So I’m back on to a serious health kick.

As a promise to myself, I require five things of myself daily – yoga, meditation, running/exercise, good eating, and being good to my body. 99% of the 6 days I have been here, I have done all of this. It feels good to know that I am on a ‘road to recovery’ after all of the damage I’ve been doing to my body over the time I was down south. The air is a lot cleaner here too, which allows me to breathe better.

My friend and former instructor, Crystal Erickson has made the transport down here too, so I’ve got friends not too far away from me! It’s a three mile walk across town, unlike LA which takes forever and a day to get across.

(to be continued)

Crossing Over


I write this blog as life is about to cross over into a new direction. Thinking back to months previous to this, I said that things were going change drastically on 3/3/13. I sit here now, at 2:15 am with a ton of hope, love, and inspiration in my heart for what is to come. As it stands right now, I have the basics – my breath, my life, my gratitude. Tomorrow, I have two job interviews, and it remains to be seen where I’m going to be living and with whom. But I fear not. Heart is filled up with love and trust in divinity. I’ve been seeing a lot of 1s, 5s and 7s lately. So it seems everything is going in this synchronous flow. Even readings from the daily book of prayers and meditations, music and signs are all in sync. This includes the friends I’ve been conversing with over the last few days.

I went to the Ananda Ashrama today with Dillon Ross, and it was absolutely amazing… even more enlightening than the last time I was there three weeks ago. The choir was excellent today, and the sermon was just what I needed to hear for the current stage in my life. Today talked about going with the flow, trusting in divinity and doing what makes you happy. There was a good piece that Mother spoke about regarding fear, and I am glad to say that at this current moment, I am not fearful for what is in front of me, but rather excited. I see this as a big change for me – time to finally break free of everything that’s held me back for many years.

In addition to the service, I also met Mother. And at first I wasn’t sure that I could handle talking to her with her intense energy, but after seeing how warm and welcoming she was, I shook her hand and introduced myself as ‘Bhagavate.’ She gasped and gave me a hug, exclaiming, “The Divine is here with us!” This made me chuckle. The Ashram is becoming such a delightful place to me.

The rest of the day was spent hanging out with friends, making music and getting ready for today’s life change. I feel so confident. I just wanted to say THANK YOU to all of those who stood by me, tolerated my ups and downs, and always believed in me.

I felt intrigued to open the Book of Daily Thoughts and Prayers, and this is the lesson for today –

      Only when we are ready to give up without calculation or fear of results, are we able to do big things. Renunciation always brings freedom from self-limitation. It removes something that is alien to our true nature. When the bigger thing comes, the lesser thing is wiped out. The wiping out of the lesser leaves room for the larger, more heroic impulses of the heart.

 Namaste, my friends! 

~ Bhagavate Om

The week is nearly over but I thought I’d follow up to the blog on kirtan that I last posted. After a mighty Community Kirtan on Monday night, I began thinking about the longterm effects of those who sing.

A typical kirtan verse would begin with Govindas singing a selection of mantras/bhajans, and we as a group would respond by singing back. After a few rounds, a Kirtankar would be selected to sing the mantra solo. There were a few I really admired this night. Sure, we’ve got a lot of amazing voices that attend, but there are some that aren’t exactly ‘on pitch.’ What impresses me most about these people though, is their passion and confidence.

Truth is… everyone is able sing, and no one should hide their voice simply because they aren’t “good.” Good… Bad… Mediocre… These words are only perceptions. For example, I find myself often listening to the Shree Radhay Mantra by Sri Shyanji Bhatnagar.

Sri has a very thin voice, but the passion he displays through his words is readily noticeable. The words go straight to the heart…

So what are the real physiological effects of singing? ‘A study published in Australia in 2008 revealed that on average, choral singers rated their satisfaction with life higher than the public – even when the problems faced by those singers were more complex than those faced by the public.’ []. Singing decreases anxiety and stress, while like exercise, releases endorphins and releases more oxygen into the blood. Singing also emulates meditation by using the same deep breathing principles.

When you are part of a group, the feeling of belonging to the group often gravitates one away from the loneliness that combats many of us as we get older. In addition, a “stress-free” zone becomes concrete. Learning new songs, melodies, and harmonies play a great role in fending off depression.

Depending on the type of song being sung, doors to self-exploration swing open. Singing can unify a mass of people. Singing can heal pieces of our lives that we were unable to “fix” in any other way.

If you’re not convinced yet, An article on talks about prevention of chronic obstructive pulmonary disease, a condition that combines chronic bronchitis and emphysema, both of which are caused primary from smoking –  “Singing keeps the chest muscles active, which slows the COPD process.”

Bottom line – Everyone can sing. Everyone should sing. And many don’t like how their voice at first. I know I didn’t. But the more you get familiar with your voice, confidence comes, and the world becomes so much more wide open.

Sing on!


Just days after the passing of Shyamdas, an influential figure in the Western World’s Kirtan Movement , I have finally gotten around to posting this blog. After attending a beautiful candlelight vigil/Community Kirtan at Bhakti Yoga Shala, I feel a lot more of the Bhakti Way flowing through each DNA strand of my being.

Let’s start at the core first. What IS kirtan?  While kirtan translates to ‘praise’ or ‘eulogy’, many define it as call-and-response devotional singing/chanting to the many faces of Krishna. Kirtan involves chanting hymns and mantras, while instruments such as the harmonium, tabla, two-headed mrdanga, pakawaj drum and karatal hand cymbals are used to accompany the voice.

More about Kirtan and the Bhakti Movement can be found here –


Kirtan(a) has quickly become a big part of my life, and I find myself chanting these mantras or bhajans as I wake up, when in distress, while I move throughout my day, and before I go to bed. It gives me a sense of peace or, as I call it, “instant meditation.” Kirtan goes straight to the anahata or heart chakra. It is, in my opinion, one of the deepest gifts you can offer to the Universe. Some also say that it is the most rapid way to enlightenment or Samadhi.

In my experience in kirtan, I have been attending Bhakti Yoga Shala’s monday night ‘Community Kirtan,’ compromised of Kirtan Leader, Govindas, and percussionists Clay and Arjuna O’Neal. In addition to the bliss I feel every time I step through the door, I always walk out so much more connected to the divine; to Krishna. It is here I have found my inner voice, through chants like bolo bolo sab mil bolo om namah shivaya. To see a room light up through a mass of call-and-response, followed by ecstatic dance creates a vast warmth throughout my chakra system. The amount of happiness I feel is unparalleled.

When asked how to describe kirtan, I simply smile and say, “You need to come with me to experience this.”

Much gratitude and thanks to Govindas, Radha, Clay, Arjuna, Bhakti Yoga Shala and The Universe for putting such a passionate pulse to my life.

Namaste and Jai Ma!

Recommended Kirtan Artists

  • Shyamdas
  • Govindas & Radha
  • Jai Uttal
  • Deva Premal & Miten
  • Krishna Das
  • Bhagavan Das
  • Snatam Kaur